Part III

On focus: “You have to work hard to get your thinking clean to make it simple.
But it’s worth it in the end because once you get there,
you can move mountains.
~ Steve Jobs

In my preparations for my sabbatical, I realized that I needed a focus. If I were to simply download all memories, it would be a massively overwhelming mishmash of data.

Imagine for a moment that you thought about cooking, and immediately every single fact, measurement, recipe and ingredient in your entire consciousness flooded your mind all at once. It really wouldn’t be that helpful. When you are cooking and want to make a masterpiece apple pie, your mind chunks it down to just the relevant ingredients, tools, and techniques that you will need to accomplish that task.

In the same way, if every detail about every moment I have ever experienced were to flood into my consciousness, it would be overwhelming and not at all useful. Plus, it would take lifetimes to sort it all out.

Did you do your homework from the first two posts in this series? Are you ready to link arms and walk the yellow brick road with me? (You need to read the last post  to understand this reference.)

Realizing I needed a focus, it was important to use my innate filtering processes (we all have and use them), plus my conscious direction, to hone in on a more specific area of my life. In this way, I was not going to get a flood of memories about all the times I swept a floor, drank a pint, sharpened a sword, or stubbed my toes. I really am more interested in other more important events in my history.

So what would be my focus? What would most valuable to my life and soul?

For each individual, this will depend on the hierarchy of their personal values.

A couple of years ago I had attended a retreat where I discovered and explored a past life that fascinated me. The essence of that memory was….

I saw myself as a two year old girl, running up and slamming my body against my mother’s knee, giggling, and wanting to be included in the conversation she was having with her mother, my grandmother. They were both healers in the Middle Ages who used their herbs, tinctures, and energy to heal, deliver babies, and perform other such needs in the community. I watched them plant and dry herbs, and observed as they  diagnosed and treated their patients. I was inspired and, over time, given more and more tasks to assist them.

Famine House as Lifetime Focus

I grew up in this educational environment and developed my own abilities. Not only did I learn to heal as they did, I developed a way to read and heal on the astral, etheric and spiritual levels, as well as on the physical.

As I was considering what to focus on during my trip to Ireland and Scotland, my first thought was to clearly recall those abilities that I had in that Middle Ages lifetime. I wanted to not only know that I had those abilities, but to bring them alive in me once again, and thoroughly integrate those skills into my work here.

This is a distinction that is important to mention here. There are two ways to work with your “past” lives. (In a previous post I explained the quotes.)

1. Observation—a sightseeing tour of a past life to collect data about events, relationships, occupation, and so forth.

2. Integration—a deeper examination that allows the knowledge, wisdom, emotions, and experiences to change the nature and perceptions of the person, increasing density in the auric field and wholeness/oneness with the greater soul.

I find an amusing correlation between these ways of viewing other lifetimes and the way people travel. Some travel as tourists, as in, “If it is Tuesday, this must be Rome”, and checking museums off their list. While others experience a new location by assimilating into the culture, meeting the people, adopting new tastes and habits, and allowing the experience to make a lasting impression. In my humble opinion, the second is the more valuable way to live and travel.

I digress….so, back to my focus for the journey. While I was eager to regain those past life skills, I had to ask myself…for what purpose? Why did I want that to be my focus?

I don’t identify myself as a healer, so while I wanted to regain those forgotten skills, I was also curious how that fit into my soul purpose.

When we use the word focus, it implies honing in on a singular point. As the Bible says, you can’t worship two gods. And this is what that means. You can’t have two contradictory thoughts, two opposing values, two divergent foci for your energy and intention. We try, but that makes us a divided house.

I went back to the drawing board and reconsidered my focus.

During that same retreat years ago, I identified three core themes of my other known lives. This was a concern for me, too, as it was not one, but three. Was I divided? Was I less potent because my lifetimes took me in different directions with various foci and intention? The answer to those questions would unfold for me after I returned from Ireland and Scotland; and I will reveal it to you when we get there.

We have what are called “Hub” aspects, like the hub of a wheel. That aspect of you that is the hub would be the one who determines your purpose and direction, making the decisions and leading the way. Other lifetimes that relate to that purpose, energy, and direction are considered spokes. Those spoke lifetimes are meant to support that purpose and direction, yet sometimes they slack off, or go in other directions. I suppose you can think of this like either you are a team player, or you are rebelling, pulling away, cowering, wandering, resisting, etc. Of course, it is always best when all the lifetimes pertaining to that hub are moving in the same purposeful direction.

There can be more than one hub, although it would seem to be more advantageous to narrow them down to one purpose and direction, to focus all the energy of your soul like a laser with potency rather than disbursing it like an incandescent bulb.

As I stated, I identified what I considered to be three hubs, and discovered thematic names that resonated with them. These names and their variations had been given to me in many lifetimes.

Sophia: philosopher, teacher, scientist, astrologer, wise man/woman, counselor, advisor, Druid, Buddhist, writer, strategist, inventor, doctor
Mary: religious, devoted, pious, disciplined, nun, abbess, bishop, mother, leader
Isabella: pagan, wild, adventurer, high priestess, energetic, sexual, gypsy,  intuitive, psychic, outlaw, pirate, ruler, entrepreneur

I deeply resonated with each of these “muses” or aspects of myself, and had expressed these various faces at times in this lifetime. Still, I had some concern that they seemed to be going in slightly different directions.  How could I correct this? How could I integrate and focus all my energy into the one true purpose? As I continue with my tales, it will be revealed how these three show up and how it all gets resolved.

As I continued to contemplate these hubs, I wanted deeper understanding, resolution and cohesion. I wanted to be unshakeable in my knowledge of my true purpose so I would know how to guide my transformation in this period of Pluto transiting my Mercury. (If you don’t understand this reference, it is in my first post in this series.)

I had found my focus for the trip: To find clarity of, and alignment with, my purpose.

Stay tuned for the next post, where I will continue my saga and more memories flow.

  1. Meditate on the themes that continue to show up in your life. Perhaps you have clues from past life memories. You can also gain clues from your present life:
    • What was your favorite character you pretended to be in childhood?
    • What section of the bookstore are you drawn to?
    • What events do you enjoy?
    • What is your favorite topic to discuss?
    • What are your favorite classes to attend?
    • What else are you drawn to do?
  2. Can you identify one or more hub lifetimes in your soul’s memories?
    • Do you think you are experiencing a hub aspect or a spoke aspect?
    • Note: The pros of being a hub aspect include your ability to choose and perhaps even change the purpose and direction for your soul. The cons include having to take leadership and responsibility for the direction of your soul!
  3. If you had to pick one theme or focus for your day, today, what would that be?
  4. If you had to pick one theme for the recall of your memories, what would that be?

As you identify your focus, keep asking yourself “What is the purpose of that?” until you are satisfied that you are aiming at the highest and most potent goal.