The Need for Focus

What is your soul’s focus? What is your life’s focus? What is your daily focus?

Continuing from a previous post where I started to tell you about my journey to Ireland and Scotland in search of self-discovery and integration, we have been discussing the desire to remember our past lives in order to become whole, and yet the tendency to build walls of forgetfulness. 

In all my preparations, I realized that I needed a focus. If I simply download all my past life memories, it would be a massively overwhelming mishmash of data. 

Imagine for a moment that you thought about cooking, and immediately every single fact, measurement, recipe and ingredient in all your consciousness flooded your mind all at once. It really wouldn’t be all that helpful. When you are cooking and want to make a masterpiece apple pie, your mind chunks it down to just the relevant ingredients, tools, and techniques that you will need to accomplish that task.

In the same way, if all the data about all moments I have ever experienced were to flood into my consciousness, without relevant value and focus, fit would be overwhelming and not at all useful. Plus, it would take lifetimes to sort it all out. 

So, it was important to use my innate filtering processes (we all have and use them), plus my conscious direction, to hone in on a more specific area of my life. In this way, I was not going to get a flood of memories about all the times I swept a floor, drank a pint, sharpened a sword, or stubbed my toes. I really am more interested in other more important events in my history.

So what would be my focus? What would most valuable to my life and soul?

A couple of years ago I had attended a different retreat where I discovered and explored a past life that fascinated me. The essence of that memory was….

At about 2 years old, I saw myself running up and slamming my body against my mother’s knee, giggling, and wanting to be included in the conversation she was having with her mother, my grandmother. They were both healers in the Middle Ages who used their herbs, tinctures, and energy to heal, deliver babies, and other such needs in the community. I would watch them plant and dry herbs, and observe as they would diagnose and treat their patients. I was inspired and, over time, given more and more tasks to assist them. 

I grew up in this educational environment and developed my own abilities. Not only did I learn to heal as they did, I developed a way to read and heal on the astral, etheric and spiritual levels, as well as on the physical. 

As I was considering what to focus on during my trip to Ireland and Scotland, my first thought was to clearly recall those abilities that I had in that Middle Ages lifetime. I wanted to not only know that I had those abilities, but to bring them alive in me once again, and thoroughly integrate those skills into my work here.

That is a distinction that is important to mention here. There are two ways to work with your “past” lives. (In a previous post I explained the quotes.) 

1.  Observation—a sightseeing tour of a past life to get the facts about events, relationships, occupation, and so forth.

2.  Integration—a deeper examination that involves integrating the knowledge, wisdom, emotions, and experiences so as to change the nature and perceptions of the person, increasing density in the auric field and wholeness/oneness with the greater soul.

I find an amusing correlation between these ways of viewing other lifetimes and the way people travel. Some travel as tourists, as in, “If it is Tuesday, this must be Rome”, and checking museums off their list.  While others experience a new location by assimilating into the culture, meeting the people, adopting new tastes and habits, and allowing the experience to make a lasting, and life-changing, impression. In my humble opinion, the second is the more valuable way to live and travel.

I digress….so, back to my focus for the journey. While I was eager to regain those past life skills, I had to ask myself…for what purpose? Why did I want that to be my focus?

I don’t identify myself as a healer, so while I wanted to regain those forgotten skills, I was also curious how that might fit into my soul purpose. 

When we use the word focus, it implies honing in on a singular point. As the Bible says, you can’t worship two gods. And this is what that means. You can’t have two contradictory thoughts, two opposing values, two divergent foci for your energy and intention. We try, but that makes us a divided house. 

So I went back to the drawing board and reconsidered my focus. 

During that same retreat years ago, I identified three core themes of my other known lives. This was a concern for me, too, as it was not one, but three. Was I divided? Was I less potent because my lifetimes took me in different directions with various foci and intention? The answer to those questions would unfold for me after I returned from Ireland and Scotland; and I will reveal it to you then.

We have what are called “Hub” aspects, like the hub of a wheel. That aspect of you that is the hub would be the one determining your purpose and direction, making the decisions and leading the way. Other lifetimes that relate to that purpose, energy, and direction are considered spokes. Those spoke lifetimes are meant to support that purpose and direction, yet sometimes they slack off, or go in other directions. I suppose you can think of this like either you are a team player, or you are rebelling, pulling away, cowering, wandering, resisting, etc. Of course it is always best when all the lifetimes pertaining to that hub are moving in the same purposeful direction.

There can be more than one hub, although it would seem to be more advantageous to narrow them down to one purpose and direction, to focus all the energy of your soul like a laser with potency rather than disbursing it like an incandescent bulb. 

As I stated, I identified what I considered to be three hubs, and discovered thematic names that resonated with them. These names and their variations had been given to me in many lifetimes.

Sophia – philosopher, teacher, scientist, astrologer, wise man/woman, counselor, advisor, Druid,  Buddhist, writer, leader, strategist, intuitive

Mary – religious, devoted, pious, disciplined, nun, abbess, bishop, mother, ruler, royalty

Isabella – pagan, unbound, adventurer, high priestess, energetic, sexual, oracle, outlaw, pirate, ruler, royalty, leader, rebel

I deeply resonated with each of these “muses” or aspects of myself, but had some concern that they seemed to be going in slightly different directions. As I continue with my tales, it will be revealed how these three show up and how it all gets resolved.

As I continued to contemplate these hubs, I wanted my transformation in this period of Pluto transiting my Mercury, which is an astrological opportunity for transformation in thought, communication, teaching, writing, and travel.

I had found my focus for the trip: To find deeper clarity of, and alignment with, my purpose.

Stay tuned for the next post, where I will share with you some questions to contemplate while on your journey to discover your focus and purpose.

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